lololol

how about a complete spinn off the post that's just below?
no, actually. not gonna happen, tho i did manage to change my views on life and i'd rather say now that life is splendid and generous these past couple of months^^

anyway. i'm off to sleep for now. god bless evertone and toodles.

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Basically, I don't approve of my life.
And what's more, I don't approve of the lives of other people.

or should i rather use 'disagree', whatever.

the selfindulgence of humanity is just frightening to me. like i was raised with an idealistic attitude, or at least that's what i thought and now i can't see any idealistic thoughts in any of my ormer mentors.

while i walk the streets i see how humanity decays and drowns in the sea of ridiculous self indulgance. no more thinking, no more reason, just instincts.
and masks. a mask is a must.

you're not you anymore. you're who i want you to be. and that's so convenient that i hate it.

Why thank you.

Did you know that we are born with knowing no emotions at all?

Well that’s pretty understandable knowing how we technically didn’t even exist properly before.

And that thing is even more confusing, because having all the warmth from our mother and relatives when we get back home the very first emotion we get to feel is feeling bad.

That’s both ridiculous and hilarious to me but actually the first thing we feel is discomfort provided to us by our own existence. It’s like nature telling us at the start ‘hey mate, now you’re gonna feel bad and then you die. Enjoy, toodles.” And then just sits back to watch.

A kinky bitch the Nature is indeed.

And I started to wonder a bit, is humanity somehow trying to compensate for that? Like make up for the fact that the fundamental emotion that every other emotion is built on is not love or some other thing we’ve been told to belive in that would help us living our lives sustaining minimum harm? Maybe we make and do fun stuff and find happiness in things that just make us less miserable. How ironic it is that we grow up and are thought that life is awesome and we should be happy about it.

Then again I was told that a human being as a unit is so strong that if it has at least one positive moment or memory it will hold on that and make it trough the misery. And apparently, some things from our past that reside in our sub-consciousness( according to good old Mr. Freud) come out form time to time to to disturb our well fortified strongholds of mental sanity and social adaptation that have been established by our rather limping civilization.

Then again, maybe the idea behind this is that the first thing to know was the greatest enemy we’ll have to face later on and the sooner we learn to fight it the better( how nice of you Nature), but I still find humanity to be way to stupid/evolved to handle it properly. Also, I really don’t see how would we be able to figure ourselves out when we’re rather close to killing ourselves any minute now.

Anyway, kudos here, to some philosophers like Arthur Shoppenhauer ho once said "...there are times when children might seem like innocent prisoners, condemned, not to death, but to life, and as yet all unconscious of what their sentence means."( somehow an amazingly large amount of those guys’ thoughts could be summed up with ‘we and our lives are soooo much messed up anyway’ and no surprise, most of them died pretty fast and the other figured out life enough to live trough it), poets( these were always in deep shit, emotions are bad afteral) and even religions( duh…) for figuring that out. Especially those of southern-east Asia, they’ve claimed for a long time now that there is no good without bad in our life.

And I don’t really try to come up with any serious conclusion here.

And also kudos to our most primal emotion. Cheers.

i <3 barney

lol at how many posts i can make durring a single day. but since it's already past 1 am i guess we might count it as the next day.

anyway, i was just watching himym season 1 and a thing made me think.
why does ted hang out with barney. and at the end of the episode i knew.

barney stinson is the retarded randomness factor of our everyday life that makes it actually interesting. licking the liberty bell? going to phillie all of a sudden? that's barney for ya.

everyone should have his own barney so i'm asking you. who and where's your stinson?

damn

with each day now i'm getting more and more frustrated with how people act.
would you guys explain me why it is so hard for you to use brain?
i know that since the thesis that an unused organ weakens and perishes got proven invalid
but for fuck's sake it doesn't hurt to think and not be an idiot.

like today i'm sitting calmly and indulge myself with the sounds of the new prodigy while talking to some people. and unfortuantely i must say that's tiresome.

why don't people just shut the fuck up so that i might shut the fuck up as well.

you're annoying people and i'm annoying too.

why the fuck did i born as a human being xD

Lov u tho :**

yawn

sooo anyway...


do drugs. drugs love you

well good evening

so, i've started the shit and joined the blog group

and yes i have problems with sleeping and that's why i watch tv series all night

anyway, i'm off to see some now

bye bye